Psalms for Some

Monday, February 06, 2006

Catharsis

In a darkened room, deep in the latest reaches of night, a man slept. Rain danced a sad pitter-patter against the single window of the room, and the sounds of urgent winds and distant trains filtered through the window's imperfect seal. The man turned in his sleep. And, as the man slept, he dreamed. And through his dreams, a man named Michael died.

***

Michael's arms burned and his fingers cracked, white knuckles and bleeding palms proving to be a poor distraction from the abyss that gaped beneath him. A spasm threatened to shake his grip free, but Michael restrained it with a pained grunt.

Michael could feel the blood oozing from his hands, could sense the strength seeping from his over-taxed muscles. But he did not care. Any second he kept holding on was a second he was still alive. Time seemed to slow down, paralytic agony crawling in spiderwebs through his back, his shoulders, and into his arms. Muscles tore and he seemed to grow heavier by the moment. Michael let out a gasp and his fingers buckled. In an instant he was weightless, wind tearing past him as the walls of the shaft flew upward.

Faster than he could believe, Michael felt the flesh of his back being torn apart. The spike formed an ugly, jagged cone, arresting the momentum of the plummet as three feet of bloody metal burst through his chest and gut.

A spasm shook Michael's body as his spine caught and tore against the spike, and he died.

***

At first, Michael did not know where he was. The compartment was tight as a coffin, its walls blackened grating. Dawning horror drew the breath from his lungs as he saw the small jets of either side of him grow orange with anticipation. He screamed.

The jets erupted, pouring liquid fire into the cremator, blistening Michael's skin, causing pus and blood to ooze from every inch of his body. The red fire became white, and the weeping flesh blackened and caught fire, seeping the inferno into his organs and bones. Michael felt his eyes burst from the heat. Then, he died.

***

He was strapped to a table, above him, a man lowered the screaming metal teeth of a chainsaw onto Michael's neck. The buzz slowed for only an instant before pulling flesh and blood from its prey, hurling them into the air. Through the agony, Michael felt his aerteries torn, his wind pipe severed, his esophogus eviserated. The sudden inability to breath throttled him as the grinding blade touched bone, protesting with a halting hiss. Then, the blade was clear, the nerves severed, and Michael decapitated. He imagined he could feel his head roll off the table as he died.

***

A mere moment of awareness before a hatchet became buried in the back of Michael's head. Electrical impulses surged through his body, terrifying numbness cutting off his every sensation before one burst of pain filled his eyes and Michael died.

***

Suffocation, bleeding, poison, disease, starvation, crushing; Michael died again and again, without rest or mercy or hope. And rain splashed gently on a darkened window as a man slept blissfully.

5 Comments:

  • Not sure I "get" this one...

    It seems like the passages describing Michael are chronologically reversed, and go from hell to crematorium to preparation for his incineration to his "actual" death.
    The opening and closing passages make a good capsule, each using a perspective with the sleeping man.

    Is there some deeper meaning to this piece of writing? It's pretty cryptic, so I'm going to guess at some symbolism. I'm curious to know if you intended any, Jon. Do you use symbolism and themes often?

    The name, "Michael" makes me think of Michael the archangel. Maybe that represents virtue, or innocent people...
    Or, maybe he represents you, the author. Is Michael your middle name?

    The sleeper, I suspect, is the ignorant population in general. "Blissfully" unaware, but apparently blind to something they should care about. If that's the case, the rain, winds, "window's imperfect seal," etc. could be metaphors.

    By Blogger Nick, at 8:56 AM  

  • That is some very interesting interpretation you have going on there, Nick.

    To be frank, while I have my own explaination for this blurb, I rather like yours better. And that's one of the things about fiction- the multiplicity of interpretation allows for a far greater degree of depth than a purely mathematical form of communcation would allow. I will say that you are right in the assumption that there is some metaphore going on here.

    My middle name is "Robert," incidentally. I try to stay away from overtly interjecting myself into fiction, to avoid the "Mary Sue complex".

    Typically, I write with a strong emotion inspiring the work and a couple of themes, conceits, or goals to play with. In this case, of course, we have a sense of repetitive life-in-death for Michael and a blissful ignorance (or possibly full, sadistic awareness) for the sleeper.

    By Blogger Jonc0re, at 2:04 PM  

  • Hm. Not sure if I'm comfortable with my interpretations being not wrong. If that's not what you were saying... or trying to say, at least...
    Dubious.

    What's the "Mary Sue complex?"

    After I thought about this piece, I realized that I totally forgot to include the title in my considerations.

    By Blogger Nick, at 9:08 PM  

  • A "Mary Sue" is when the author creates a thinly veiled projection of themself within their work, who is at once the most "powerful," "likable," or "interesting" character. Generally you see this in fan fiction- A new student comes to Hogwarts, and suddenly he's Harry's best friend, and Hermionie falls deeply in love with him. It's cheap ego gratification. Now, of course, the author can never stay wholly independant of what he writes- there is a little bit of personality sublimination in everything- but you want to avoid ego-stoking simplicity when at all possible.

    And I'm not really willing to say your interpretation is wrong. Or right, for that matter. You, my friend, have too long studied the black and white of mathematics and verifiable science. Just because the author "intends" one thing does not mean that, on some subconscious level, he didn't actually put in more than that. So, while my motivations may not be clear, if you can make a strong case for your own interpretation, using the text as a guide, who is to say your version isn't exactly as valid as mine?

    By Blogger Jonc0re, at 7:03 AM  

  • Interesting reading, Matt. Very viceral. And probably a little closer to my own interpretation.

    By Blogger Jonc0re, at 9:50 AM  

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